It’s been a year…pov Sara

Part 2!

To my crazy and wild self :P

I can’t believe a year has passed since the creation of Chaotically Charmed. Although a whole lot has happened, it never lost its shine. It was a project I always went back to, whether I was thinking of a new logo, brainstorming topics to discuss, or realizing I really should get some kind of audio setup. It definitely needs work; sorry in advance for your bleeding ears!

With many things I do or take part in, they tend to end up on the back burner where the fire eventually goes out. With Chaotically Charmed, that didn’t happen. I knew this was something special, and I wanted to keep that fire lit. But life got in the way, and not always in a bad way. It was a whole year of learning. I was learning which people in my life have my back and which don't, and learning to either forgive them or just let them go. I’ve been learning to forgive myself and stay strong in the boundaries I set. I’m relearning who I am (what I like and dislike) and becoming the person "Little Sara" would have been proud of and to be the person she needed.

A good amount of that healing journey was because of Chaotically Charmed. Sometimes a "bad brain day" would show up and put me on a first-class ticket in a viewing car on the Poopoo Cachoo Line. All my fears, limiting beliefs, and experiences were on full display, and all I could do was watch from my seat as the train went down the track, feeling utterly helpless, guilty, and defeated. But having CC was like having an amazing conductor who said, “It is time to get your ass off this ride now!” and proceeded to eject me from the train.

CC is something new that we get to make our own. Whenever Ate Joy and I sit down to record or just have a catch-up, it feels genuine; I feel genuine. We get to talk about things we love, things that inspire us, and just hang out. In our curiosity and wonderment about the world around us, I get to be me and know that I am not alone. We are all on this crazy train ride of life together. Whether we know each other or not, we all have our struggles and our wins. This is a place where we can just take a moment and be.

So, I hope that when people listen and whether they laugh, roll their eyes, or even yell they can feel the honesty of me putting myself out there. I'm sharing all my faults and all my weirdness in the hope that someone can relate, feel welcomed, and maybe take a few courageous steps to show up as themselves, unapologetically and genuinely.

Here is to a year of growth and more to come!

Thank you, I love you!

Find your glow,

Sara